Someone please explain how when something goes this wrong, one can still love another?
Someone please explain how when one find herself in such a confusing time, she can still find the courage and strength to smile?
Someone please explain why God chooses to tell us the one we love, without telling us when the right time will be?
Someone please explain why God is so clear but yet so confusing all at one time?


These are my questions tonight, as I lay awake here unable to truly rest. I have a very long day in the morning, full of errands and cleaning. I need to sleep, but he has my heart, and that hole keeps me awake at night. I cannot comprehend why God would allow a man to think this way and yet be so sad and devastated by his actions. I guess when that happens, those are true mistakes. The question at this point though, is will he make the right choice and want to be with me? God holds the ultimate plan, however, we do have free will.