Last night was a great night, albeit a bit crazy and a bit emotional. Tony did have a breakdown, but so did I-for two TOTALLY different reasons. His wife made me mad, tryin to tell me that I am never happy there and that maybe I should quit coming out there with everybody. I don't think so! I was a part of that family before she even moved here! I will not be forced away by her. I was not trying to get with her husband, but that doesnt even seem to be what she was worried about. I swear she needs to get more secure in her relationship with him and everyone else though. I got news for her, I am not gonna be treated the way she treats everyone. She is your best friend one minute, then talkin about you the next. Come on, she is 21, it's time to grow up! I am a very real person and I don't like fake people. If she just flat out hated me, and was only polite to me, then I could handle that. I really don't care. I have never done anything to her, and so I don't deserve it!
I cannot stand the way she treats him and the things she does to the rest of us. She needs to grow up and start acting like a grown woman. He deserves much more than her, and I can't stand seeing my "big brother" being affected the way he is. He kept telling me that I came first and all that and I can't stand hearing that cause she would flip out and I know he is hurting. He kept tellin me that I'm one of the few who actually talk to him while he is over there. That makes me so sad. God, I love him so much and I miss my big brother. I don't want to send him back! I know he will be home only three months or so after he goes back, but that is too long! I have been sad about him being gone, but have done pretty good at just keeping up with him and not thinking about it, but now seeing him face to face, I just can't block it out. I know God will bring him back to us safe and sound, but I just can't take it. I miss him so much. I miss the talks we used to have, and I can't even have those with him while he is here, cause he won't talk while she is around, and she pops up everytime we start talking. He needs a bit of space and time with family and close friends, and she is not secure enough apparently to give that to him. I don't know what she thinks of me, but she does not know me well if she thinks I care about him as more than a brother. He is my brother and we are family. That is where it ends and begins. I have been around longer than she has, and if anything was going to happen, it would have already happened with us. I just want to be able to sit and talk with him. It makes me sad to think I may not get the chance to really talk with him. And you know, she may not like it but his mom already told me I am family and I better be there the 4th of July with them, so I will be there. She can get over it. She really needs to come to terms with me being family, and get over it.
Well, today I need to get to the gym, get my eyebrows done, and then shower, run errands, and head to Smyrna to work the Fine Arts Fireworks Tent. Gotta make that money!! lol
Oh! And I now have a gym buddy two days a week now!! Woohoo!! She also nannies and so we're gonna take our kids places together too this summer!! :)
I cannot stand the way she treats him and the things she does to the rest of us. She needs to grow up and start acting like a grown woman. He deserves much more than her, and I can't stand seeing my "big brother" being affected the way he is. He kept telling me that I came first and all that and I can't stand hearing that cause she would flip out and I know he is hurting. He kept tellin me that I'm one of the few who actually talk to him while he is over there. That makes me so sad. God, I love him so much and I miss my big brother. I don't want to send him back! I know he will be home only three months or so after he goes back, but that is too long! I have been sad about him being gone, but have done pretty good at just keeping up with him and not thinking about it, but now seeing him face to face, I just can't block it out. I know God will bring him back to us safe and sound, but I just can't take it. I miss him so much. I miss the talks we used to have, and I can't even have those with him while he is here, cause he won't talk while she is around, and she pops up everytime we start talking. He needs a bit of space and time with family and close friends, and she is not secure enough apparently to give that to him. I don't know what she thinks of me, but she does not know me well if she thinks I care about him as more than a brother. He is my brother and we are family. That is where it ends and begins. I have been around longer than she has, and if anything was going to happen, it would have already happened with us. I just want to be able to sit and talk with him. It makes me sad to think I may not get the chance to really talk with him. And you know, she may not like it but his mom already told me I am family and I better be there the 4th of July with them, so I will be there. She can get over it. She really needs to come to terms with me being family, and get over it.
Well, today I need to get to the gym, get my eyebrows done, and then shower, run errands, and head to Smyrna to work the Fine Arts Fireworks Tent. Gotta make that money!! lol
Oh! And I now have a gym buddy two days a week now!! Woohoo!! She also nannies and so we're gonna take our kids places together too this summer!! :)
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