Empowerment

Some days I don't feel so empowered, and today is one of them. Today, I miss ArmyBoy. Today I was not able to get into the gym, because I was lazy. Today I had to go to my job yet again unhappy and impatient for the new job to hurry up and get here. I can't hold onto that new job just yet, because I am still in the waiting to see if I will even get it. I can almost taste it, but its not quite even mine yet.

I am just overall really frustrated the past few days, but I have one thing to live by that is keeping me hanging on:

"In the end, all will be ok. If its not ok, its not the end."

Posititivity

Precious Lord Take My Hand

Precious Lord, take my hand
Lead me on, let me stand
I'm tired, I’m weak, I’m lone
Through the storm, through the night
Lead me on to the light
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home

When my way grows drear precious Lord linger near
When my life is almost gone
Hear my cry, hear my call
Hold my hand lest I fall
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home

When the darkness appears and the night draws near
And the day is past and gone
At the river I stand
Guide my feet, hold my hand
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home

Precious Lord, take my hand
Lead me on, let me stand
I'm tired, I’m weak, Lord I’m worn
Through the storm, through the night
Lead me on to the light
Take my hand precious Lord, lead me home


This is the song currently playing as I begin to settle into bed.
It has been a rough day, but I will persevere!
Sadness and anger will not overcome me or hold me down for I know He is taking care of me!
The icy, snowy weather here made it impossible to move my car to go to work, but tomorrow, that HAS to change.

Headed to sleep a bit earlier than normal in order to get up early for work so I can thaw my car for about an hour! LOL Who knows how tomorrow will pan out, just gotta have a great attitude and hope for the best!

:)

I leave you with this quote of the day:

“You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses.”-Ziggy

Life

is full of funny little things, isn't it?

In further update of my life, things have changed massively. I quit both jobs, and found a new one. I have been there about three months now...proves I have been away from blogging for far too long! lol
Things are still going well with the roomies, no matter how many times we all gripe about who should have cleaned the kitchen! haha
I am in my second semester of college now and I haven't died...just yet! lol I have chosen a major and minor that I really feel confident about, though I still want to dally in the more creative side as well. Guess only time will tell.
My cousin Rebecca is due for another visit at the end of February and I could not be more excited!!
I am going to Washington, DC and Colorado Springs, CO at the end of March to see other family members...it seems sooo surreal that I get the opportunity to visit such cool places while seeing my crazy Herron family!! I cannot believe us being this spread apart could ever be such a cool thing. I hope to travel to Chicago to see more family one of these days as well.
I have an application awaiting approval for a new job....yes another new job so soon lol I am taking my time to pray and wait and investigate many job options...the new job would be with a school system, so I would have time off throughout the year, full time benefits, higher pay, and a much more rewarding job. I truly would be helping students learn and that could not be more valuable to me. This job also allows me to be at church each Sunday, visit family and friends more, get an apartment without roommates, save money, travel more, eat better, and go to the gym more often.
Speaking of the gym, I am currently addicted!! I work out about 7 hours or more a week and I LOVE IT!! I love being at the gym and working hard and taking better care of my body. This new trend is not a Resolution nor something I doing for anyone else. This new healthy outlook is for me alone and if others begin to notice, all the better!
I have a crazy sleep schedule due to my odd work hours at the current job, but I am hoping to get that under better control and to also eat better.
In case you are wondering, no, ArmyBoy and I never made it. I originally said he needs his space to make these decisions on his own, and that is precisely what is happening. I got my closure, and the baby is due any day now. He will have to make the decision on his own. I know he is not happy with her, he has made that evident to the world, but he is a big boy and he will have to learn what is real and what is made up.
I am currently content with waiting. God made it clear to me that now is not the right time, so I have to move on with my life and get going on the things that are important for me!
I no longer live in grief and sorrow. I no longer go out all the time, nor am I constantly surrounded by people. I live a more solitary life now and I am really happy with that. Not to say that I do not enjoy time with my friends, I do, but I do not feel the urgent need to get out all the time anymore. I am taking a haitus from relationships at the moment and working on focusing on my goals....speaking of goals, I guess the newest ones should be outlined now.....
--GOALS--
*All A's in all four classes this semester
*Gym minimum of 4-5 hours a week
*Loose weight and be toned and ready for the Music City Half Marathon in April
*Have a swimsuit ready body by May
*Attain new job
*Aquire more appropriate sleep routine
*Do something creative daily
*Meet new people
*March trip to see family
*Save up to move again

These are some very high goals, but I know with hard work and reliance on God, I cannot do anything! He is my strength and He enables me to be "More than a "Conqueror"!!


School is beginning to get hectic, so the OCD in me is insisting I plan and organize for the semester. That is what I shall do now, then hopefully some shut eye in the near future!!

I leave you with my quote of the day:

“If you want to make good use of your time, you've got to know what's most important and then give it all you got.”--Lee Lacocca

The Zebra Is Back....

So things are changing for this Zebra in Pink. I know it has been quite a while since there has been a posting from this lone creature, but the atmosphere around here has been more like a crazy jungle than ever before.

I hope to get back to daily blogging again-should be a good thing for my health and sanity.

I am back in the gym and working a lot. Hoping to get a new this new job soon. I am putting it in God's hands and doing my part. It really feels like a good position for me. It just really feels right, but I guess we will see what happens.

I have made my official Air Force Decision. Come my college graduation, I will also be commissioned as a 2nd LT in the US AF. :)

Times have been rough and honestly, I wallowed in some self pitty and depression for quite a while. I am now out of that pit and climbing my way to higher ground. I created a new positive attitude and am truly working on making me happy. I am working towards a new job, new body, new friendships, new priorities, new hair, new apartment, etc. All of it is new. My attitude is amazing things will happen when an amazing mindset is in place!

I will be posting my goals and upcoming news on here and hope to be back on daily as I mentioned before. The zebra has returned.

Today's Random Musings

It is time for bed for me. Much too late!!

I had a long night in my class tonight. I guess I should explain that I am actually in college now, not just moved out. Its been great so far. So missed assignments, some crazy crunch times, some super crazy stress, but now, I am ok.

A friend posted this quote on Facebook and I simply had to post this on here. This is really how I feel these days....

There comes a time when u have to stand up and shout: This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! Take me...or leave me. Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I ...don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

I had a great chat with my stepmom on the way home from class and she even helped me with my essay when I got home.

Class was crazy tonight!! Two hours of grammar=blah!! I hate grammar exercises and review, but I do suppose they are necessary. ICK!! We learned we have to have an entire book read in a month and then we will be writing a paper over it. We also learned we have a different essay to start work on this week. The prewriting is due next week and then the final is due in three weeks. I actually find that reasonable and doable.

I still need to get that book and my math online book. I have until the 27th to catch up on my math assignments I missed, however, I have to have the other english book well before then! I am going to call the lady in the morning about the paper I need to sign to release my scholarship money to me, and then within 3-5days of her recieving that signature, I will be able to access my money. Which means I will get all my money back for books and such. That will be wonderful!!

I have so much to say, but no energy to do that tonight. More homework and stuff with baby Greer tomorrow. Now I say goodnight ya'll. This southern gal is headed to dreamland!

Muah!!

Rebecca and Kendall Visit the Boro :)

My cousin Rebecca and her daughter came for a visit this past weekend. What a wonderful time we had. Jaime and I cleaned and such the night before and then on Saturday morning, my fabulous cousins arrived to see me! :) Now, they also needed to pick up a playhouse they had purchased, but had been meaning to stop in and see me. It was truly great to see them.

Once they arrived Sat morning, we had lunch at the apartment, got them settled in, and hung out for a bit. Then, around 3pm, we headed over to the Discovery Center in town. Since they were closing in two hours, they let us in for free! That was truly a blessing!! After we played there and showed little Kendall all there was to do, we all decided we simply HAD to go down the big slide that connects the two floors of the center. Even us big girls LOVED that part.

We then went to eat at my favorite Mexican restaurant in town and had a really awesome and yummy dinner. We decided to ride around and also to go to Walmart. We had so much fun just paroosing the premises and just goofing off. We also stopped and got some lottery tickets. None of us one, but it was still a lot of first time fun! :)

After the day's adventure, we came back to settle in . We all got in our pjs, and layed down to get baby girl Kendall to sleep. Once she was asleep around 930 or so, Jaime, Rebecca, and I went in the livingroom to hang out. We did not plan it, but ended up staying up till 2am! We had so much fun! It was great to have some girl time and just hang out.

The four of of us got up pretty early Sunday morning. We all hung out and took our time getting ready. We dropped Jaime off at her house, then went to Greenbrier to pick up the playhouse Rebecca bought. We got lost along the way, but still had fun. The wonderful day ended with the three of us having a yummy dinner at Cracker Barrel and then a walk around the apartment grounds.

All in all it was a great time spent with family. I love them so much and miss them sooo much. I cannot wait to see them again. I do hope to see them in a month or so, if not, it looks as though it will be Christmas time again before we all get together.

I'm just so full....

of emotions, energy, thoughts, and things to do.

So much is going on. Far too much to put in one posting and it all make sense. So, today I will begin posting several updates to explain everything in detail.

Today, I am missing class and my interview(see other posts) due to rain! ICK!! Rain just simply gets in my way. I do plan on emailing in my essay and I also sent an email informing my teacher that I will be absent.

One of my roommates, the one I have known for many years, her family's area of the county is completely flooding. Complete with the helicopter rescues and requested evacuations. Schools are shutting down and roads have been and/or are closing. This is a nasty time. I am ready for pretty fall weather, not this icky crap.

So on to the next topic I go....

Late Update

So it has been way too long since I have updated. I guess I will catch ya up today.

I have celebrated my bday, I got my tattoo, I moved into the apartment, and I got a second job. Life seems more complicated than ever, yet peaceful at the same time. The apartment is coming along very nicely. I love my roommates and it seems to be going very well with them too! :)

Tonight will be the first night at my new job. I am very very hesitant of this. I am taking another babysitting job, but it will be every Monday night, and I am still nannying Mon-Fri during the day and also babysitting on the weekends. I need to find something else to do! LOL But it is pretty easy money and something I do well. Mondays will be crazy for a while though. Heck, my life is gona be crazy. Monday I work 730-330, then 5-11. Tuesdays I work 730-330, hit the gym for a bit, then choir practice 630-8. Wednesdays I work 730-330, then go to Zumba and Yoga at the gym from 530-815. Thursdays I work 730-330, then hit the gym and run errands. Fridays I work 730-330 and have Zumba at 530-630. Saturdays I have Zumba class too, but I probably won't always go. Sundays I have choir at 8am then church and such and then to bed to rest to do it all over again. HAHA This should definately prove interesting. I am excited about it though.

We made my headboard for my bed and put that up. It looks super cute!! :) I got to go to Outback with my parents and friends for my birthday and that was awesome!! I had a great time!! :) I loved getting to see all my close friends. I also had a great cake!! It was made to look like a Tiffany box! :) It was adorable!! It also tasted yummy haha.


So this is a long post to update, but I also wanted to share some quotes and lyrics today.

How did it get so late so soon?
It's night before it's afternoon.
December is here before it's June.
My goodness how the time has flewn.
How did it get so late so soon?
~Dr. Seuss

There are those, I know, who will say that the liberation of humanity, the freedom of man and mind, is nothing but a dream. They are right. It is the American dream. ~Archibald MacLeish

Ours is the only country deliberately founded on a good idea. ~John Gunther

If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door. ~Milton Berle

Success: To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded! ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. ~Author Unknown

It is foolish to tear one's hair in grief, as though sorrow would be made less by baldness. ~Cicero



and here is a song that I also like today....

Avenged Sevenfold- Crossroads


I've been traveling for so long
So lost till I stumbled upon
Two roads in front of me
I had to take my time

To the right I could see a church
I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole
Where they were whiskey drunk
And now that's where I wanna pray

So far down here just holding on

[Chorus:]
If I was perfect
Than this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walk through the center
With no rules to guide me
I realize it's difficult
But now I can see

There's gotta be another way to go
a way that's much more feasible
A combination of all these lies
to set your path without choosing a side

I make decisions one at a time
And no, I never say I'm always right
I'm confident that when I stand on my own
You'll see the truest form of a man
when I'm shining through

So far down here just holding on

[Chorus]

Oh, I hear them now
All the religious rage

(Anger I see)
(Anger I see)
(Anger I see now)

The left isn't better
It's just more of the same.
Condemning all these people
For what they believe
I'll climb to the top of their mountain again
No one is going to save me this way
And the closer to the top I get the more they can aim
But I'm not you

I may not be perfect
But I've always been true
I may not be worthy in your eyes
Climb up from the bottom
For the last time
The last one, the last one,
The last time

[Chorus]