Where do I begin tonight? Tonight is another really crappy night. I feel really icky, I haven't talked to him at all today and only briefly yesterday and I am not holding up too well. I also leave for Orlando in 13 hours and I have not started packing.ah!! I think I am going to sleep in, skip church, and pack for Orlando in the morning. I am just hurting so bad. I think I will make my packing list and sleep. I need sleep. The plan was to stay awake so I will sleep the whole way to Macon tomorrow, since I hate driving long distances, but that simply isn't going to happen. I think I will sleep until seven and then get up, pack, shower, clean, find my meds and such, and then meet them at the church at 130 to leave. I will take meds to knock me out and sleep that way. I just can't stay up any longer. It's killing me. So much for my new normal sleeping schedule.

My side is killing me thanks to this dang cyst...ugh....

I need to sleep now. I pray that I do and that I get everything done tomorrow. I am very excited for this trip, albeit a bit nervous,but oh well. I hope I am able to talk to him some while I am there. I don't know how much I will be online when he is, considering the odd times we are at the hotel, and when we are there, I usually head to bed.

Gah, I miss him so bad and I wanna know why he hasn't been on today. Please God let him be online tomorrow and email me. I need to talk to him.

goodnight