So I have apparently fallen off this whole blogging bandwagon lately lol But I am back!! :)

Met my new roommate today and she seems really cool. Getting my first tattoo in exactly a week from today. I am soooo ready and soooo excited. We have a bunch of plans for my 18th bday and I am very very happy!!

Things seem to be going well at the new job. It is really an easy job. I feed him breakfast, we watch clifford then run around and play. Then its snack time and then down for a nap by 10am. He sleeps till one or later then we do lunch and play till I leave at 330. I love watching him and playing with him. He is going to be really fun to teach and watch grow up. I can tell the other three boys will be a handful when summer and other breaks are here, but what can ya do? They seem respectful, just happy little boys that need to be kept under control. Its gonna go fine. I just know it will.

I move in just under two weeks. :) Things are moving so fast. I never thought it would get here,it always seemed to drone on and on. Now, I will have a tattoo and darker hair in a week, my own apartment with two cool friends in less than 2 weeks, and I have a really fun and reliable job. I am also looking into some other extra jobs too, just for financial security. School seems to be put on hold, because it is taking a while to get my transcripts and SAT scores sent, so I am not sure that I will get to start in the fall. I hope to take some online classes, but I guess we will see if that will happen. I need it to happen.

The faster things move, the crazier they get, but I am learning to embrace all the changes and go along for the ride. I still have my moments where things are really hard to deal with, but I know I have a lot to be thankful for. I have wonderful friends, a great job, a nice car, a good, albeit crazy, family, and now my own apartment. I need my ArmyBoy too though :(

I still really feel like this is the real deal with him, but I am also so scared. I get hurt everytime, and I have gotten hurt by him before. So, my decision isn't clear yet. I don't know what I am going to do. I do have some sort of interest in someone else, so I plan to hang out with them, and see where it leads. I truly feel like maybe Army Boy needs to make these decisions without me around and I need to see other people. I think we will both find in a few months that we need to be with each other. I know it is real, and I know he feels it too, but I know this will take time. Not sure where to go from here. I have to trust that God will take care of it all. He has proven that He is watching over me in all other areas, so why wouldn't He take care of me in this area of life?

Well, I need to get off for tonight. I will try to get back to a regular schedule of blogging again.

Goodnight