Wow today was very interesting. I picked up Haley Bug from school then met Danielle at work to eat lunch with her. It was a good girlie lunch :)
Then, I got home and ACTUALLY heard from him today :) I also had a reply from his sister from where I had sent a message to try and work things out. I didn't want her hating me, even if he and I are not official right now.
I also had the chance to have a good, long chat with a GREAT guy friend of mine, who helped me through a lot of things. Wow! He and I have always been friends and I consider him a brother, but I think I had really forgotten just what he and all my close guy friends mean to me! Now, only if I had gotten to talk to Tony today-that would have been icing on the cake! Looks like its time to send that boy an email!
Gosh! I miss my soldiers :( BAD:(
Come home safe boys!!
I have gotten most all of their addresses now and will be using the next few days to write their letters and gather their items for their boxes. I may not have much money, but it's time to send off some appreciation!! I love them all sooo much and they need to know that, and I'm sure they do, but I want to reinforce that!
So...I kinda feel bad for not going to the gym today, but I have worked out daily for like five days straight and have been eating pretty decently, so I figure, with as sore as I am, it's ok to take a break today. I am also going to take Friday off. I will hit the gym sat night for Zumba too, so its not like I'm slacking a whole lot. Friday will be spent at the water park, so I will NOT be being lazy then either. Plus we're takin the bikes to the trails Saturday I think so...DEFINITELY NOT being lazy, just getting outside some too :) Its pretty weather right now and I want to enjoy it while I can! Plus, I want to enjoy some family and friend time :)
This weekend should be fun!! I am going to yoga class tomorrow then packing for Bama! I have to pick Alisa up at 1230 then we are heading out! I am excited to take her to my home town. Should be a fun girls' weekend :) Filled with lots of pics, the water park, Austin's last ball game, yummy dinners, lonnnggg meaningful talks with Dad and Katie, and seein old friends and family I haven't seen in a while. I can't wait! :) Plus its a surprise to everyone in Bama except Haley and Katie. Katie made a big deal of dissappointing the boys and tellin them their sis won't be there...haha...won't they be surprised! lol We are so mean...oh well :P
I am going to try to enjoy this time and take a break from thinking so darn much, although I know Dad will push the talking thing....oh well. Maybe its needed....
Tonight was rough, but special. Tonight was the last Wednesday night in youth, the last night with Kenny as pastor, the last Wednesday they will attend the church, and the Senior Pass the Torch Ceremony....I think everyone noticed the tears in my eyes when I gave my torch to Michael. That was very special to me, because I know I let him down, but I wanted him to know how much he means to me and that I want him to carry on what I did not. I love God, but I know that I was not the Christian I should/could have been these past months-close to a year, really. But, I do not regret any of it. I made some amazing friends, even though, prolly not through ways most adults or the Church would have wanted me to. Oh well. The past is the past. I am truly beginning to live by that statement. I hope my Michael knows the light he really is :) He was so shocked when I gave him my torch, and even more shocked when he got TWO tonight. He was the only one who recieved two torches :) He is an awesome and amazing friend, and I would not trade him for the world. I said a few things to the youth tonight and I hope they caught my sincerity. When I sat down on stage after I spoke, Brantley noticed my tears and said that he could tell it was all very heart-felt. I hope they all noticed that-not that I hope they noticed so I would be remembered or anything, but so that I may make a difference. There is so much I would like to say to the youth. I wish there was some way to deliver this message I have in my head to them. I really don't like public speaking that much, but I would like to deliver this to them at some point...hmmm, maybe I will talk to Hooper about that soon. Who knows....one thing at a time, Brady. Things will come, just gotta finish some other things up first before I try for that. I am learning to embrace change. I am not always happy with the change, but who is, really?
Yeah today was monumental. I also cried tonight at the thought of no longer seeing Kenny and Julie and now, baby Kate. I guess its not for good, but it certainly feels like it. They have been around since I began attending FWC. In fact, Julie was the first person I ever met in all the confusion of a Wednesday night at FWC. Mom dragged me to this church and I was not happy. I missed GA and our church there and my life there and my best friend. But Julie embraced me and she, Kenny, and Pastor Tommy, all welcomed me with open arms. I have now witnessed them doing the same for so many other kids. I have heard the stories..."If it had not been for them...." and I know where those kids come from; I know what that love and sense of family means. I hope these kids in youth now will help Hooper, learn from him, and welcome the new permanent Youth Pastor in the Fall. Change is hard, but I hope they are not distracted from the love and Will of God.
Ok...yoga, packing, and a three hour drive tomorrow, along with a long night...so its bedtime for this Southern girl now :P
**Good night**
Then, I got home and ACTUALLY heard from him today :) I also had a reply from his sister from where I had sent a message to try and work things out. I didn't want her hating me, even if he and I are not official right now.
I also had the chance to have a good, long chat with a GREAT guy friend of mine, who helped me through a lot of things. Wow! He and I have always been friends and I consider him a brother, but I think I had really forgotten just what he and all my close guy friends mean to me! Now, only if I had gotten to talk to Tony today-that would have been icing on the cake! Looks like its time to send that boy an email!
Gosh! I miss my soldiers :( BAD:(
Come home safe boys!!
I have gotten most all of their addresses now and will be using the next few days to write their letters and gather their items for their boxes. I may not have much money, but it's time to send off some appreciation!! I love them all sooo much and they need to know that, and I'm sure they do, but I want to reinforce that!
So...I kinda feel bad for not going to the gym today, but I have worked out daily for like five days straight and have been eating pretty decently, so I figure, with as sore as I am, it's ok to take a break today. I am also going to take Friday off. I will hit the gym sat night for Zumba too, so its not like I'm slacking a whole lot. Friday will be spent at the water park, so I will NOT be being lazy then either. Plus we're takin the bikes to the trails Saturday I think so...DEFINITELY NOT being lazy, just getting outside some too :) Its pretty weather right now and I want to enjoy it while I can! Plus, I want to enjoy some family and friend time :)
This weekend should be fun!! I am going to yoga class tomorrow then packing for Bama! I have to pick Alisa up at 1230 then we are heading out! I am excited to take her to my home town. Should be a fun girls' weekend :) Filled with lots of pics, the water park, Austin's last ball game, yummy dinners, lonnnggg meaningful talks with Dad and Katie, and seein old friends and family I haven't seen in a while. I can't wait! :) Plus its a surprise to everyone in Bama except Haley and Katie. Katie made a big deal of dissappointing the boys and tellin them their sis won't be there...haha...won't they be surprised! lol We are so mean...oh well :P
I am going to try to enjoy this time and take a break from thinking so darn much, although I know Dad will push the talking thing....oh well. Maybe its needed....
Tonight was rough, but special. Tonight was the last Wednesday night in youth, the last night with Kenny as pastor, the last Wednesday they will attend the church, and the Senior Pass the Torch Ceremony....I think everyone noticed the tears in my eyes when I gave my torch to Michael. That was very special to me, because I know I let him down, but I wanted him to know how much he means to me and that I want him to carry on what I did not. I love God, but I know that I was not the Christian I should/could have been these past months-close to a year, really. But, I do not regret any of it. I made some amazing friends, even though, prolly not through ways most adults or the Church would have wanted me to. Oh well. The past is the past. I am truly beginning to live by that statement. I hope my Michael knows the light he really is :) He was so shocked when I gave him my torch, and even more shocked when he got TWO tonight. He was the only one who recieved two torches :) He is an awesome and amazing friend, and I would not trade him for the world. I said a few things to the youth tonight and I hope they caught my sincerity. When I sat down on stage after I spoke, Brantley noticed my tears and said that he could tell it was all very heart-felt. I hope they all noticed that-not that I hope they noticed so I would be remembered or anything, but so that I may make a difference. There is so much I would like to say to the youth. I wish there was some way to deliver this message I have in my head to them. I really don't like public speaking that much, but I would like to deliver this to them at some point...hmmm, maybe I will talk to Hooper about that soon. Who knows....one thing at a time, Brady. Things will come, just gotta finish some other things up first before I try for that. I am learning to embrace change. I am not always happy with the change, but who is, really?
Yeah today was monumental. I also cried tonight at the thought of no longer seeing Kenny and Julie and now, baby Kate. I guess its not for good, but it certainly feels like it. They have been around since I began attending FWC. In fact, Julie was the first person I ever met in all the confusion of a Wednesday night at FWC. Mom dragged me to this church and I was not happy. I missed GA and our church there and my life there and my best friend. But Julie embraced me and she, Kenny, and Pastor Tommy, all welcomed me with open arms. I have now witnessed them doing the same for so many other kids. I have heard the stories..."If it had not been for them...." and I know where those kids come from; I know what that love and sense of family means. I hope these kids in youth now will help Hooper, learn from him, and welcome the new permanent Youth Pastor in the Fall. Change is hard, but I hope they are not distracted from the love and Will of God.
Ok...yoga, packing, and a three hour drive tomorrow, along with a long night...so its bedtime for this Southern girl now :P
**Good night**
i am definitely one of those people that can say "if it had not been for them..." i met them at one of my hardest points in life. at a time when i felt like i was nothing and they proved me wrong. it still just feels like a bad dream. it probably won't feel real until we get the permanent youth pastor. with hooper calling the shots it just feels like kenny is on vacation, a really long vacation...
ReplyDeleteoh and about sending stuff to the troops, i know that right now the mail is not running where jesse is. it is canceled until further notice thanks to the weather. just thought i'd let you know.
Yes, that is gonna create a problem. And wow, I am really slow apparently, because until last night, I did not realize that they were all on one base lol which means jesse, walker, and raymond are all on one base. duh! lol im sooo slow sometimes
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